Cigarette Smoking…

 

It all started with CURIOSITY. When I was a child, I used to see my father smoke and I can see the satisfaction in his face.

Those younger years,  I felt the urge of imitating my father so one day, while me and my grade school classmate were playing in their garden, as  naughty kids,  when we passed by a tree of Santol fruit and we noticed that the tiny branch has a hole… so we fired it up and puff it ( taste is sweet and smells good) :p

One time, I sneaked out one stick of cigarette from my dad … my room’s located on 2^nd level of our house and was alone so I tried to taste the cigarette…I coughed so much!!!  not aware that my dad was down outside, and since I was coughing, he looked up to where the noise was and saw the smoke coming out from my window.. so he hurriedly ran up to my room and  both of us were shocked as he saw me smoking… what he did?… he grab the cigarette from my hand and said a fatherly sermon not to follow his footsteps… from then on, I stopped the idea of smoking.

However, after my college graduation and started working in the city wherein socialites are all around, I was influenced by my officemates/friends to always join them during break time, chit chat.. but all were smoking so I went along… it became part of SOCIALIZING.

I can’t say it is addictive as I can manage not to smoke for long hours especially if in forbidden areas like inside the hospital or airplane. But if the place is free to smoke, I get the urge to grab a stick of cigarette and light it up, especially every after meal or just partner it with hot coffee, it feels so comfortable feeling… getting use to it becomes HABITUAL. Not sure if it has something to do with psychological aspect that having the habit smoking… If I feel like smoking and I don’t do it, I tend to feel uneasy.

Of course, friends and love ones keep on advising me to quit smoking.. but because of my stubbornness, I just make time plans of when I will start quitting but eventually my self-dicipline is too weak, still.

Funny thing is that sometimes, even if I don’t have spare  budget for cigarette, I try to squeeze my budget further just to purchase it :p

My mind understands that smoking is bad for the health and am aware of consequences that I have to undertake sooner or later if I continue this bad habit of smoking.. but  the main problem is I can’t seriously decide to quit yet.

Perhaps, those readers who also smoke can relate to this  funny phrases:

• Smoking is bad? .. so am burning it….Smoking is good?.. so and puffing it :p
• If you smoke, you die.. but if you don’t smoke, you also die… so be happy and smoke :-p

Ooops, please don’t condemn me… I will quit soon, anyway 🙂

Thanks for reading my stubbornness  :p

 

 

 

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